Happy Hump Day peeps! I don’t know why but I love saying hump day!
This week has been a week of reflecting and thinking for me. As we all know, it was the 10th anniversary of 9/11. Like so many people, I can’t believe it’s been that long. In a way, it seems like only yesterday. 9/11/01 was an odd day for me because I was probably one of the last people to know about it! I was living in L.A. at the time and had been up until about 4 or 5am the night before, I was a night owl back then. So I slept until about 1 or 2pm PST, which means it was 4 or 5pm EST…the entire day had gone by and I wasn’t awake to learn of the terrible tragedy that had unfolded. I remember my phone ringing a bunch of times and I was annoyed and just went back to sleep. Those calls were people calling to tell me what happened and make sure that I was alright. Also, I didn’t have TV at the time so I could only find out information online and by speaking to people who had seen everything on the news. I didn’t see any 9/11 footage until years later, I couldn’t bring myself to watch it. I felt very disconnected from the world and it was strange to think that I had slept through everything. At that time, I had only been in L.A. for about 7 months and was having a difficult time adjusting to living so far away from my friends and family back in Michigan. I was already battling some depression and I believe that 9/11 the beginning of a very dark time for me. Shortly after, I became severely depressed and had a tough time even leaving my apartment. I also began to not eat properly and indulge in all kinds of self destructive behaviors. I was having panic attacks one right after the other and I had lost 30+ pounds by only eating 500-800 calories per day. Eventually, I got some help and turned everything around…I am a very strong and resilient woman! But sometimes I wonder if 9/11 had never happened if I still would have fallen down that deep dark hole.
I’ve also been thinking quite a bit about a good friend of mine whom I am sure many of you know…Taylor Stevens. She was diagnosed with lymphoma on Christmas Eve in 2010 and is currently undergoing radiation treatment, after going through chemo. September is Lymphoma Awareness Month and I want to take the time to share with you how special of a person she is. I first met Taylor at Exxxotica Miami, we had tweeted back and forth before and I thought she seemed very nice but you just never know with all the crazy girls in the business how someone is really going to be in person. She came over to our booth to say hi to Sara Jay and I waved her down…her face lit up and she ran over to give me a huge hug. Within seconds, I knew she was sweet and full of life. We immediate began to make plans to do Glamourcon Chicago together that summer and I felt as if I’d known her for years. That doesn’t happen to me very often.
So we did the Chicago show together and had a blast! She always kept me going with her high energy : ) We got to spend some time out drinking and having fun and it was so refreshing to meet a girl in the industry that wasn’t crazy or full of bullshit.
Then we decided to do Adultcon L.A. along with Brianna Jordan. Brianna and Taylor had never met but I had a hunch that they would hit it off…and I was right! Being around Taylor made the show so much more fun and I loved the energy that the three of us had going. We called ourselves the Big Titty Committee..along with Jelena Jensen : ) Perfect title if you ask me!
Even though she’s been fighting for her life, Taylor hasn’t let that stop her from living and showing her fans how appreciative she is of their support. Her positive attitude is something that we can and should learn from. Visit her blog and see what I mean! http://taystevens.com
Life is precious. You never know what will come your way so life should be lived to the fullest. Appreciate each and every day. And tell people that you love them. Tay, love you girl!! Thanks for being an inspiration to so many!